Psychopath and Narcissist Survivors Support Group

slu2 · member Joined: 10 Apr 2008 Posts: 1

Myself and 5 of my half-syblings do not have a good relationship with our mother. All of us moved out of home early in life, myself at age 14.

The relationship was extremely toxic. Mom would buy us stuff to try to make up for all of the mental and physical abuse of our father and sometimes herself.

But when we would act out, she would try to make us feel guilty of all of the things that she bought us.

When it would come to accountability, we were always at fault for not respecting her and appreciating all of the wonderful things that she bought us.

We would have bad physical altercations, but this was always so. Our mother and father always beat up on each other. Several times there were restraining orders put in place.

But when us kids would act out, our mother would take us to counciling. One time commited me to a mental institution.

I would be willing to just sit down and talk with the councilor, but our mother would not. Instead she would cite all of the violent encounters we would have and play it off as if though we were the ones that had a problem.

This went on and on.

To our Mormon neighbors it was always me and my 5 half sister who were the ones with a problem. But she could not come to terms with the parental break down and the violent environment that we all were raised in.

So after living on the streets for almost 5 years, off and on, being in and out of jail with a severe drug problem. I found Jesus, came to grips with my inferiority and short comings, and I gave it all over to the Lord.

In response to my sin and bad behavior, and the grace of God that saved me from it, I wrote an anonomous story and put it on the internet.

I first showed it to my mother and father 7 years ago. They read it, felt betrayed by things that I mentioned that identified them in the story, and I agreed to remove some of the revealing details.

They knew it was on the internet, but after 7 years when I reunited with my half-syblings my mother got inferiated and stopped talking to me again because I was on good terms with my sisters for the first time in my life, since most of them moved out before I was born.

Then she found an internet website that I posted on for years, and told everyone that I was lieing about my story.

It was an anonymous story, and it was basicly meant to encourage drug addicted, or homeless, or distraught teenagers to keep their heads up. But some how she felt attacked by it.

Then went to the ministry that I volunteer at with kids, and told them that I would beat up on my syblings when I was a kid. Which probably didn't look good to the ministry that I worked with, since it was the same youth ministry that I went to when I was a homeless teen, and they were there for teens.

I think sometimes N's can come in all shapes and sizes. Some may blame their children for doing aweful things, when they don't want to except responsibility.

I remember when my mom worked at a mental institution, she once came home and told me I was N.

But my sisters and I feelt that is probably the case for her more so.

Years of mental abuse has seriously taken it's toll on us kids though. 6 of us, prevented for years from seeing our father because of our mother's insistant and obsessive jealousy and P/N ways is just too much!

thegabrielle77 · member Joined: 19 Oct 2007 Posts: 315

slu2

((((((((hugs)))))))) to you. Sorry that you had a traumatic, abusive childhood, there many in this forum that have had the same expeience that you have had and just wanted to welcome you and tell you are not alone. This is a great place with a lot of wise, kind and caring people, we also have a lot of resources...one area that might benefit you is the:

Narcissistic Mothers And Fathers Forum

http://thepsychopath.freeforums.org/narcissistic-mothers-and-fathers-f28.html

Also the Narcissistic Relatives Forum

http://thepsychopath.freeforums.org/narcissistic-relatives-f13.html

Please keep posting and reading here.

Hugs
Gabrielle
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smith01285 · member Joined: 31 May 2008 Posts: 12

you are truly an inspiration.