Psychopath and Narcissist Survivors Support Group

jsoto · Joined: 06 Apr 2008 Posts: 2

Its been too many years since my N. Unfortunately we share a child (who he uses to get to me). It is a full time job to cut ties with a N. It is exhausting!! I have managed to do so only by moving from Ohio to Kentucky (he followed), Kentucky to Nevada (he followed) and Nevada to Virginia (he followed). I have not had a phone in over a year so he cannot contact me (only by email) I have a designated n. edress because he has hacked into all my other accounts. I had to get a court order to get him to stop calling me at work. it's quiet now (kindof). But its lonely too. I've only gone out with a couple of individuals since n. but every time I start to feel interested my emotions go haywire, I have panic attacks, I don't trust a word anyone says to me. I am paranoid. i am confused. I feel like I am either at the height of recognizing abuse or so twisted from it that I inadvertantly create it myself. I've been seeing this guy for about 5 months now. He's the only one whos made it past the first or second date. i freak out if he's 5 minutes late or if he doesn't call. I really don't like the person I have become. i can rationalize these panic attacks and know that they are just panic attacks but I cannot stop getting shaky, and short of breath. he says that it's all in the past and I only need to make my mind up to just not be that person. I don't think it is that easy.

littlecat2 · Posted: Mon May 05, 2008 12:55 pm Post subject:

Dear friend ... you don't mention whether you're in therapy or not. If not, you need to be .... it's one of the only ways to break free, emotionally, from these sickos. And, find a good, qualified, therapist, a certified, licensed, Psychologist - either a PsyD or PhD. Other, lesser trained, counselors, often do not recognize either N's or P's. Do yourself a favor, and get the help you need to get through this nightmare.
abby
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