Psychopath and Narcissist Survivors Support Group

Talula · Joined: 06 Apr 2007 Posts: 139

Matilda,
I posted this originally in the anything goes... I should delete it from there. I don't want to take this to the forum I like because there are people healing the right way there and I am struggeling the wrong way. You are right. It's time matilda, I have to do something. It's almost like a gutter drunk trying to admit being an aloholic with me but I want to heal, too! I am asking for all the help I can get and just left a message for his probation officer. Maybe he isn't off just yet. a lot of crazy ideas are going through me and the things I could do to remedy this problem. Right now is a good time to take action since I am leaving the city for the long holiday season. I have to act now. I am asking for your help along with the programs available in my area.

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He must be having problems in his pathetic life. For the longest time he hasn't called, emailed, or come near me. I have not contacted him in anyway for any reason since the "pinch" thing. Until last night... I picked up the phone and told him to stop calling my home or I will get a restraining order. loudly. with a swear word.

Since Dec. 4th he has called my land line 29 f'n times. Loading my phone with v'mails and all but three were between the hours of 11:30 and 3:30 am. the others were after 10:30. These calls do not include my cellular and direct connect. All calls were when he was drunk! Damn near every night.

If calling is the only thing he is doing won't he get bored? Won't he move on if I don't respond? Like my mom said in second grade... bullies move onto someone else if you do not respond. NOT THIS ONE.

He just finished probation, community service, and anger management obviously learning nothing. I am scared to get a ppo. He probably won't call me after a ppo... he will be destructive. Weather it be my vehicle, which is most predictable, or someone I know, without saying, me. THIS SHIT ISN'T FUNNY ANYMORE DAMN IT. When he drinks he is true evil and calls me all night long til he passes out. If I don't respond he seems to simply like talking on my v'mail then the next day nothing....UNTIL HE GETS DRUNK. Not once has he called me in the daytime since Dec. 4th.

If I get a restraining order will he do the unthinkable if he can not call? Is it just better to let him blow my phone up everytime he gets drunk vs. the other things I KNOW HE IS CAPABLE OF. Getting a new number is on the list... it's hard for me to change my phone numbers because I am in sales! My number has been flabbaghasted with my clients for a year 1/2. It will cost me money and will not save my life. If he can't call me he will be here in three seconds; literally. We live too close to each other for the police to save me OR HIM AT THIS POINT.

You know, I called a domestic hotline and those bastards never called me back. I am going to call again today but all the advice from others going throught this or been through this is needed. I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING. NO MORE THINKING I CAN DO THIS ALONE!

Matilda, all your harsh words, all your posts that left me dumbfounded are breaking this cinder block head of mine. I AM PISSED OFF AND NEED TO DO SOMETHING OR I WILL NEVER WAKE UP FROM THIS NIGHTMARE.