Psychopath and Narcissist Survivors Support Group

jorrel · Joined: 13 Sep 2007 Posts: 4 Location: st cloud

I have been learning so much! I have been a "slave" to my sister "hero" since childhood. And she has destroyed my relationships, devastated me financially, verbally abuses me as if the situation I am currantly in is my fault. I should have never told her " I am doing good, infact better than I have been in a long time". -She called 911 and said I had attempted suicide and overdosed... She lives 2 hours away. She seeks admiration for her deed. Has no idea what devastation she has caused, and seems to be very excited to hear all of the details. I will not give her that sick pleasure.. She discredits me to husband, friends, relatives, knowing I am a threat to her because I know what is behind her mask. I need $4500 for an Emergency trip to Saint Cloud Hospital where they preformed every test know to man on me. I was put on suicide watch and not allowed to leave. The police made the 72 hour hold a requirement, a psychiatrist was able to override this thankfully. I have to talk to my sister now to get the bill paid but do I dare and how? Any advise? -J.
_________________
Evil can prevail only as long as the Good do nothing.. -Something like that! Smile

OxDrover · Joined: 13 May 2007 Posts: 1467 Location: Arkansas USA

Dear Joel,

I am so sorry all of this has happened to you and that you have had to go through all this "drama"---it really hurts when people we love turn out to be the ones that enjoy hurting us, just for the pleasure of seeing us "bleed."

You have come to the right place for knowledge and healing however, and everyone here on this forum has been through the trauma and drama of being victimized by these monsters in human form.

The Best thing, in my opinon, for you right now is to LEARN ALL YOU CAN about how these people operate and think---it is NOT like "normal" people think or feel--they "pretend" to have normal and "caring" emotions all the while cutting your soul to shreads.

Most of us have chose NO CONTACT at all with the people who victimized us. It is difficult to do and sometimes almost impossible, but in the end, NO CONTACT (NC) will give you Power to protect yourself. They will for a while at least try to have contact with you, but remaining strong and realizing that THEY DO NOT LOVE YOU, and that no matter what they say it is a LIE, and that even if they are telling you how much they love you IT IS A LIE, and anything that they do to "help" you will be paid for in BLOOD--Your emotional and/or physical "blood"---

It is also difficult to "think logically"when your soul has been shreaded by them. So for now, just today--don't do anything but LEARN AND READ AND LEARN AND READ.

Come back here to post, or just vent or cry--there are people here who CARE and HAVE BEEN THERE. (((hugs))) and my prayers to God to help you through this horrible time are on my lips.
_________________
Life is lived forward, but understood backwards.

Theresa13 · Joined: 16 Feb 2007 Posts: 1531 Location: , Ontario

jorrell, Ox gave you the very best advice you'll get............I'm truly sorry for your insane situation, and I so get it cause I have a bio sister who is now dead to me.........Have had no contact at all since Aug 2004 and don't plan on having any again.............THESE PEOPLE ARE TOXIC. So take Ox's advice and read and learn and post all you want and we wil be here for you.........Try to realize YOU DID NOTHING WRONG........... It's a very difficult thing to wrap your head around , but as God is my witness if you stay close to this board you'll be o.k. Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and hope to hear from you again really soon.........God speed........Always, Theresa
_________________
I've given my memoirs far more thought than any of my marriages. You can't divorce a book.

jorrel · Joined: 13 Sep 2007 Posts: 4 Location: st cloud

Thank you Ox and Th13! I am undergoing some "detachment" and insecurity issues in the area of sex as well as selfworth. It is difficult because the real me is very "potent". Just got a lot of anger, in my belly and "old rage stored in my gallbladder".. According to ancient theology. -My animal does not trust humans. It currently hasn't danced, functioned (let alone swung from the chandelier should I say) as it once did.
If I could paint a picture of the bodyworker yesterday a Kudalini Master -demanding me to "point" my out stretched fingers and "release my anger through them!" My back cracked so incredibly loud as if cracking a huge walnut of energy it freed my spine as that energy SHOT up it and out through my fingertips! I glanced at my fingers them expecting white lighting to have singed the walls in from of me. All a within a split second...

Last night, I didn't have my anxious urge to pop my pills or masterbated to relax, instead I took 2 pulls on a cigarette, put it back out. Shut of the Movie I had put in and slept like a BABY... Whew, Guess I needed that session!

From here I follow what?? Instinct? Dunno.. Just feeling more aware??
_________________
Evil can prevail only as long as the Good do nothing.. -Something like that! Smile