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happyalone · Joined: 19 Feb 2007 Posts: 79

Forgiveness found its way to me
Through the dark clouds of my pain
Consuming anger but now I see
I will now never be the same

A warming gift of letting go
My choice to cease to hate
It revealed itself for me to know
To forgive is never too late

Why did it take so many years
If it was waiting all the time?
It matters not for now it's clear
The choice was always mine.

The brightest of forgiving love
Has captured me forever
A treasured wonder from above
To hate will now be never.

louxloux · Joined: 20 Jul 2007 Posts: 1523

What a beautiful poem.

I recently had a discussion with someone I trust about whether or not I have to go through hating my N in order to get past him. That perhaps its a phase. I don't want to hate b/c the Bible tells us that we should not. I don't want to hate b/c it makes me feel rotten inside. My friend pointed out, that hate is a strong emotion. One that eats away at us, makes us bitter and distrusting of others... and then she asked me if I really wanted my N to have that power over me? By hating him, he is still in control. In chosing forgiveness we are set free.... and it IS a choice. Your poem illustrates that perfectly.

Thank you for posting it Smile

movedon · Site Admin Joined: 12 Jul 2007 Posts: 814

lovely poem I enjoyed reading that very thought provoking, and so true
Thanks so much for sharing it

Movedon
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happyalone · Joined: 19 Feb 2007 Posts: 79

Thankyou both for responding. I was struggling with anger for quite some time, but I believe anger is a healthy response to being hurt, and once we work through it, and allow it to pass, we are so much healthier for the experience, as painfull as it was.
Hate is strong, and makes us like "them" so good for you for seeing that it's also something you can chose
bless you both,
happy

OxDrover · Joined: 13 May 2007 Posts: 1465 Location: Arkansas USA

Lovely poem and profound thoughts. Thanks
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mikey#1 · Posted: Mon Oct 29, 2007 1:00 pm Post subject:

happyalone

That is a great poem. I think some of my hate, or maybe it is really anger is fading.

"A warming gift of letting go" I am copying this and pasting it by my computer... That line, I love it. Thank you for making me realize that my hands were still clenched in anger and pain. It is time for me to take a deep breath and relax those clenched fingers. This will be a gift, not for him, but for myself.

Mikey#1

Theresa13 · Joined: 16 Feb 2007 Posts: 1546 Location: , Ontario

I've read this several times and wanted to respond but couldn't as I knew I wasn't even close to forgiveness..................I do desperately want to get there and I sincerely hope one day it comes..............I know in my heart thats where I want to be and I guess it will come in time...........I do pray for all of them, and try to go with "FORGIVE THEM FOR THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO"----(even though the N/P's do know what's up - I don't think they comprehend the monumental pain they inflict,and the fact that they don't care makes it very difficult to cross this bridge for me)............
I must admit I get quite confused when pondering this stuff---------However I will keep on the path and hope that my heart leads me to freedom..................T.T.F.N. Theresa
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