Hello again. I just read as many of the posts/questions and more videos that I thought would be relevant to my own case. I am wondering if I am suffering from PTSD, and would like to know what to do about it? I am definitely operating like a 'machine' compare to what I remember of myselfTrue that much of how I operated during my 25 years of marriage (which ended after I found out he was homosexual) was about getting things done...at a demanding career, raising a family, etc., except then I 'thought' I had hopes and dreams! He travelled a lot and I had much to focus on, so there was not much time for a life for me...so I was absorned in my family's life. And as much as I enjoyed and loved everything I did for and with my children, I didn't enjoy myself. So I don't know if I was co-dendant or just a busy wife and mother! Now, I can't tell if the 'abandonment' by the 'perfect man' 3 years ago (post divorce...who treated me as if I was a gem and then dropped me as if I was worthless...an experience which started me on my research into narcissistic/sociopathic/manipulative people) was the 'sudden trauma', or the prologed 'abandonment' and 'rejection' by older my siblings (lost father at 11, mom at 20) that may have contributed to it all. But here I am, lacking enthusiasm, with no plans, just going to work, not exercising, not wanting to date (though no one that I would date has happened in the past 3 years), and not interested in making new acquaintances like I used to. I used to exercise, ate healthily, and was OK. Yet, in spite of some things that I did right, like creating no contact with the 'perfect man' in spite of his attempts at getting together again 'as friends', as well as cutting contact w/ my sibblings, as soon as I noticed their manipulations and games (thanks to my research), I seem to have no idea on how to enjoy life. The kids are grown and about their own life, I like my work, am still sought after, but I would like to be interested in life and living! What suggestions do you have for me? I know if I only exercised I'd feel better, but don't do it! I am doing better with my eating habits, but that is ups and downs too, I hope you can help. What do we do when we have lost trust, and the desire to create anew? Thank you.