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WindSong

I've been "blessed" (can you smell the sarcasm LOL) with an Nmom and a real Ndad. Last night I wrote Ndad an email asking about his health. He's been having some trouble with his health. He's getting ready to have cataract surgery on the 27th. I eamiled to inquire that this is still going to take place. I can't drive at the moment so he has someone taking him and picking him up and taking him home.

Well I wrote him a week ago about finally being diagnosed with Pneumonia and Pleurisy. he never wrote me back.

Our relationship is almost entirely consistent upon email. Every once in a while we go out together for a trip to walmart and then straight home. He does no more than I ask him. but I will give it to him that if I do ask him to do something, he does it. But.......

My damn N dad has gone and upset me now. I wrote him this email. But when I wrote him and told him of my pneumonia he never wrote back to check on me or nothing. Now I am kinda slow with email, I'm always behind and it takes me a couple of days sometimes up to a week to respond. I did respond to him. He wrote back one his hateful assed emails that he was just doing like me taking weeks to respond if I responded at all. I had written him. It was HIS turn to write me back. this is the asshole who wrote me last month and said I didn't answer him fast enough so I was "history".

Once again despite my best efforts to be diligent and stroke his damn ego I was the good daughter. And as usual it bit me in the ass. I just don't think we can win with N's no matter what. maybe he resents me because I won't be there. I offered to have mother carry me to the place that he is having surgery and riding home with him and his friend and taking care of him the rest of the day. But I doubt he even remembers or acknowledges it. he gets drunk and does weed I know. And when he's on it it's mean.

I so need to get him out of my life. But I can't seem to do it, such as it is with narcissists. We have this sick malignant optimism that someone how magically they will change and be what we need them to be.

But the hatefulness just pisses me off.

Thanks for listening. I just needed to vent! Smile

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WindSong · Posted: Tue Mar 20, 2007 1:52 pm Post subject:

By the way......

I'm up for adoption. Anyone want to adopt me? I would make a great addition to your family! Already grown and you would get two awexome teenaged boys in the package! Cool

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oaktree · Joined: 16 Feb 2007 Posts: 362 Location: Minnesota

Hi Windsong, Its always so one sided with them, isnt it? You dont need this in your life. They are not there for you--why are you there for them? Do you think you are not worthy of love and caring? THEY did that to your head. Are you ready to go NC? I think it would really really help you. I would adopt you if I could, but I'm afraid I am having to heal myself also and need to take care of myself. I am having this little spiritual crisis right now, you see. Confused

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justmee · Joined: 15 Feb 2007 Posts: 692

Hi,

Vent away. Why do we hang onto the hope? By the way, if youre kids like the country.....I have two xtra bedrooms.... Smile

WindSong · Posted: Wed Mar 21, 2007 12:05 am Post subject: Re: time to take care of YOU

thayilflies · Joined: 16 Feb 2007 Posts: 499

Some days are better than others. It is more productive to direct your emotional energy towards yourself and your larvae. It is a hard lesson to learn, but you don't want to waste time waiting for people to change.

WindSong · Posted: Wed Mar 21, 2007 12:24 am Post subject:

WindSong · Posted: Wed Mar 21, 2007 12:36 am Post subject: