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DebsUK · Joined: 18 Feb 2007 Posts: 11 Location: Guess!!!!! :)

I wrote this and other poems after 1year of NC...it's now almost 2 yrs of NC and i've been with my wonderful NON N for almost one year now and very happy..I ca't imagine how I was so addicted so such an awful person...Femfree and Tammy really helped me thru and sent my emails when I was at my lowest..I am totally recovered and much more wise now.

ONE YEAR ON

The times it passed..although so slow
the pain remained..I just couldn't let go
the dream..the man..I loved so much
I was addicted to his every touch

Then,.. one day..something changed
I didn't feel that intense pain
times a great healer you all have said
but all I felt was nearly dead

I know when I think of my past life
I than k god I didn't become his wife
I see now..through clear brown eyes
that everything he said was just a lie

My world is mine
my thoughts are clear
and I never have to bend my ear
to his evil tongue that made me cry
and I never have to say oh why!

This is a message
to everyone here
he's just not worth all your tears

believe in yourself
and get out and run
don't let your kids lose the fun
of growing up with safety and peace
it's what they deserve at the very least
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Debs

"Normal rules of conduct don't apply with N's and P's"

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"Normal rules of conduct don't apply with N's and P's"

happyalone · Joined: 19 Feb 2007 Posts: 103

I like your poem, it's been a bit over a year for me also, and femfrees other site got me to where I am now. Thank God for it, and now I"d like to share my story also here, and still hear from others that may be where I was. The pain and crying has long been gone, and even though I"m alone, I'm dating, and open to knowing that I can offer a lot to the right man, should I ever meet up with him.
LIfe is great, and I look back at myself, and see that I was so confused.
great poem,
happyalone

DebsUK · Joined: 18 Feb 2007 Posts: 11 Location: Guess!!!!! :)

HAPPYALONE...I like you Nickname....and we should be happy alone after these nutcases invade our lives...with the passage of time you will find a normal man and u will have a N-RADAR...immediatley u meet an N OR P you will know...I promise!!! Life with these people is a slow death of the soul...we are never the same again but we appreciate things that we may never have noticed before...!!!!
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Debs Smile

"Normal rules of conduct don't apply with N's and P's"

happyalone · Joined: 19 Feb 2007 Posts: 103

Hi again, you know DEb, I'm fifty one, been married twice, and my daughter is on her own. I have my horses and dogs, and I"m pretty well set, can take care of myself, but wouldn't it be something , to find real love, real honesty, commitment, and sharing life together.
So, my thoughts are, now that I'm wise to this type of pretador, I"m sort of a combination of happy, open to meeting men, but not needing to.
Hard to describe, but in a very weird way, this disgusting creature of a man who almost destroyed me, made me so aware of how life can be wonderfull, and how he never deserved me!!!
take care,
I don't know if I can offer anything to others who are suffering, maybe just the fact that it's been just a bit over a year, and I'm happy alone,
maybe would be an inspiring story for someone else who is in the midst
of all that horrible confusion in that stage of being so assaulted spirituall,
mentally, emotionally, and perhaps even physically.
take care,
B