Psychopath and Narcissist Survivors Support Group

baby_kay · Joined: 05 Mar 2008 Posts: 135

I had an experience this last weekend, that has left me, back at square one. I have been in NC with N son for about 4 months. We are not communicating due to his lack of responsibility and the fact that he is one with N M. N M has sued, physically hurt me and my kids, and a rath of other horrible deals including fraud and duress. My son emailed me, rather upset and mad, that me, husband and kids are going to move out of the state we live, because we can not make a living. (I have a pretty good notion, NM has had a lot to do with it) We talked on the phone, I expressing my distaste for his actions. He, angry at me, how dare I not share my life and all with him. Look who's he chosen to be with NM. No one made him do this, then he informs me how stupid he and she think I and my husband are. We are just idiots. Like why shouldn't he treat me like dirt. Well......I cried, and cried, and cried, and my heart was completely ripped once more from my chest and stomped all over. My husband and kids and I have been going through very rough and horrible ecomonic issues as of the last year, what with the fall of the real estate market, and have been losing everything. We have made plans to move to a different state, and he has found employment. We just have to figure out how do financially do this. I have asked family members and friends (groveled) and been kicked in the teeth with that regard. NO, NO NO is all I have heard and I am still hopeful to figure this whole mess out and get on with life. I needed to write this, and purge my exsistence from the toxic people that I must still have in my life. I need to find some peace, for knowing whose crazy and hurtful and whose not. I admit, that I THOUGHT I made good friends, and had people in my life who cared, but ......seems not. My step mother kicked my heart to the curb also. I have NO ONE left. I am sooooo angry and hurt, and full of rage. I have cried, and prayed and prayed some more. I am suffering. Deeply and purely. I feel like life has let me down again. I want so badly to stop this feeling, but I know, that I must embrace myself as a whole and heal. I think healing (a verb) is a non-stop job. I just want some peace and quite and no more dealings from the N's. I needed to vent and purge. I am so glad there is this forum. Please send your prayers, as they are much needed. I won't give up hope, but I need some good thoughts of support. Any one out there, just give me a line.
Kim