Psychopath and Narcissist Survivors Support Group

At one point NM convinced the psychiatrist that I was crazy and he put me on Lexapro. NM wanted me on these meds because she hated that I wouldn't unquestionably obey her and shower her with love, and thought that meant that something is wrong with me.

One day we were arguing and I don't know why. It was probably over some petty shit like always. I went outside, slammed the door, and sat down on the grass to get away from her. NM then followed me out with my bottle of Lexapro in her hand, and shoving it at me, told me that obviously I had not taken any since I was mad at her, and when I told her that I had, she insisted that I take a few more. I told her that you shouldn't take more medicine than the doctor tells you to, because it's dangerous. She told me that I was wrong, and if I just take a few more pills, I'll settle down and be okay and not so "difficult." I kept refusing and she went back inside, stewing.

This memory really disturbs me because it proves that NM would do anything to make me compliant, even if it meant drugging me into a stupor.

omg that is awful!

I told mine I was on antidepressents. In march we had a huge row and she said to me. "Have you taken your pills, as you get like this when you haven't"... I was gobsmacked that she could be so damn stupid, say things like that and act like I am a "mental patient" as I am on AD's because of HER!

She has done WAY too many things that has creeped me out to be honest. Things that Just p*** me off.

Like making me go on steriods from a young age because I had asthma.
Lying to me when I was a veggie and put meat into my food.
Ask if I was a Lesbian as my sister told her I was
Tell me to carry on cutting my arms whenever I was upset.
Stalking me and getting her friends to aswell.
Calling the police on me and DH.
flashing her breasts in public to her friends!?

It goes on...

Flashy breasts? Gross! What a pair of nutters! I can't prove it but some weird sort of stalking by someone who looked like friend of F. At the time I thought it couldn't be cos this guy actually lives a long way away and couldn't hv been there. But thinking about it latr I'm pretty sure it ws. I didn't say anything about it at the time, thinking it ws just a coincidence but later tho, I did tell someone who didn't basically believe me. I do think I was actually meant 2 talk about it at the time it happened if u take my meaning!

NM cupped my boyfriend's face and kissed him on the lips. I think he was about 20, I was 18.

I always tried to tell myself I "saw it wrong," but it's too vivid a memory.

o lord lemmie figure this save draft thing compared to submit i believe i lost the whole jist of a conversation. sheesh

Star Kitten wrote:At one point NM convinced the psychiatrist that I was crazy and he put me on Lexapro. NM wanted me on these meds because she hated that I wouldn't unquestionably obey her and shower her with love, and thought that meant that something is wrong with me.

One day we were arguing and I don't know why. It was probably over some petty shit like always. I went outside, slammed the door, and sat down on the grass to get away from her. NM then followed me out with my bottle of Lexapro in her hand, and shoving it at me, told me that obviously I had not taken any since I was mad at her, and when I told her that I had, she insisted that I take a few more. I told her that you shouldn't take more medicine than the doctor tells you to, because it's dangerous. She told me that I was wrong, and if I just take a few more pills, I'll settle down and be okay and not so "difficult." I kept refusing and she went back inside, stewing.

This memory really disturbs me because it proves that NM would do anything to make me compliant, even if it meant drugging me into a stupor.

Oh yeh here is is Star Kitten I guess it ws a psychiatrist. I would never ever believe a parent over a child if I was a psychiatrist. Are they just not trained well? Does your mom come off with stars for perfect mom or what???

Star Kitten does your mom know she is NM. Has the subject even been brought up by the psychiatrist? How old are you and how old is your mom?

Starkitten,

"This memory really disturbs me because it proves that NM would do anything to make me compliant, even if it meant drugging me into a stupor."

That is disturbing!! Sounds like what you suspect is right... My NM tried to get my sister hooked on Vicoden and other pain meds...My NM is addicted to oxycontin.. I posted about this ealier this year or last year and someone pointed out that the best way to control someone is to get them hooked on drugs...I had never thought of that but sounds like you did...sounds like your NM was trying to sabotage your life & control you at the least and at the most maybe have you o.d.
That is quite disturbing!!

The 3 worse things my NM has done to me are:

Molested me when I was 14 years old. ( one time although quite traumatic)

Yelled at me in anger for ruining the nightgown I was wearing ( after I lit my clothes on fire because I was feeling rejected by NM, but made a split decision to douse myself with water because I felt she wasn't worth comiting suicide over) All she cared about was that she had to buy me a new pair of Pj's. & she insulted me by saying how idiotic I was and that I had a mental problem for doing that.... Not once did she say she loved me & that it would have hurt her if I killed myself....No, all I heard was " you ruined your nightgown!! There is something wrong with you! You have a mental problem! & gave me the idiot look!! I was 13 years old at the time....no support what so ever! She didn't show any concern at all that I could have died.... I personally don't think she gave a F*** , & at times I think she wished it on me.....just another day in N hell....

Telling my sister that I love my husband an in-laws more than I do my sister so that my sister would feel hurt and rejected by me( total slander and B.S) but created massive insicurity in my sister and damaged my relationship with my sister to a large degree for years and years...( only now that NM is out of my life my sister & I are having a wonderful relationship for the first time!)

Threatened to kill me for months.

When I left her house with a boyfriend she didn't approve of when I was 18, she called my house for about 3 months. She would leave creepy messages calling me names and threatening all these ways that she was going to kill me.

She also had my minion sister do drive bys and send me dead animal parts.

It was actually kind of funny, because she tried to disguise her voice and she really can't because she has a unique foreign accent, and a gravelly Marge Simpson voice.

One day I just lost my cool on her and threatened to press charges against her. She never did it again.

Looking back, I should have pressed charges and sued her in civil court.

I was 11 or 12 and on a Tropical Holiday with a few family friends. Lots of Adults and kids having dinner together by the beach.
I had my period and was a bit miserable.

PF stood up to make a toast. He raised his wine glass and thanked everyone for joining us for the holiday.... and announced that I had my period and had a sanitary pad on and so now his daughter knows how it feels to have 'something between her legs'.
I wished the ground would swallow me then and there.
The whole table fell silent. While he laughed alone.
Yeah, real funny.
Creep !!

Yikes, KL - my dad had really weird sick humour too.

I fell in a cow pat when I was about 5, and it got into my clothes and I was covered in the stuff from head to foot.
My dad thought it was hilarious and he took a picture of me naked, from behind, with me visibly breaking my heart and screaming with my head in profile - absolutely sludged up with brown goo.

NM pointed out (she was an enabler until they split) that a kind of karma happened when my StepM disposed of his ashes in a field and they landed in... a cow pat.

I left home at 15 but still kept in close contact with her. When I was 17 my life was going well- had a great boyfriend, got my GED, had a job and everything.

She forced me to the ER and made me take drug tests and tried to enter me into rehab because I was not crawling back to her, so something must be wrong. She had no reason to even suspect that I was on drugs. NONE.

I passed the tests and was not sent into rehab.

fucking bitch.

Reading all these stories just makes my heart break. My NM was not so abusive as what I'm reading here....maybe she was N Light; or just highly self-absorbed and emotionally neglectful, I don't know. Either way, hugs to you all, and I hope we can continue our healing journey from these horrible people.

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NPDad and NMom did a lot of creepy things, here are a few:

I slept in the attic when I was a kid, three floors up. One night, I was getting ready for bed brushing my hair and looked over at the window and my NPDad was looking in at me. I jumped and screamed and he laughed so hard that he almost fell backwards off of the ladder. I kept my shades closed all of the time after that.

I have a large chest that seemed to appear during the summer of I think 10th grade. One Saturday, I was going with my friend to the pool with her Dad and stepmom. NPMom told me to wear a specific short-sleeved sweater top that really showed off my curves because she wanted to make my friend's Dad's Wife jealous. Come to find out years later that she had had an affair at one time with my friend's Dad.

NMom's second much younger Husband tried to have sex with my nsister when she was 16. He flirted with me all of the time but I didn't get that he was flirting until after he was gone. He asked me to go to Boston Market for dinner one night that my Mom was working late and proceeded to tell me about each affair that both my Mom and Dad had while married. All of the grusome details. At the time I felt priveledged to know, but now that I look back I can see how f---ed up this was.

I think these stories are all so sad.

I remembered some more last night.

I was scared of thunder and lightening from a young age. I remember NM pushing me out in the garden when there was a storm and locking the door. My Brother and Nsis was watching and laughing. I didn't know where to go there was a metal pole in the garden and I didn't want to go near it, there was a shed at the bottom of the garden, but it was full of metal things, there was trees. In the end, I curled up in a ball and cried in the middle of the grass.
I am still scared of it.

I think I told you about when my dad got me by the throat and had his other fist ready to punch me in the face. NM, Brother and Nsis was watching at the door and egging him on.

I remember her slapping me across the face as an aunt told me that Nsisters wasn't my actual sisters, they were step as she had been married before. I think I was about 12 at the time and I asked her. She lined us all up and asked me again to repeat what I had said, she then slapped me until I told her that they were my actual sisters.

One day, I can't remember what for now, she slapped me in the face just before school. I remember as it was against the front door and I thought someone could see. I then walked to school in tears and a red mark across my face.

I remember her taking things that I had saved up for from working. She would come into my room because I didn't do something she said, and just took everything out. She gave them to her friends.

I remember that I did a charity bungee jump when I was 16. I did the first one, then she paid for a second one. I didn't jump the second one, as she kept saying that the elastic could break as it was wet.
I got down, and she slagged me off the whole way home.

I am sure there are loads more in this messed up head of mine!

brighteyes wrote:
I was scared of thunder and lightening from a young age. I remember NM pushing me out in the garden when there was a storm and locking the door. My Brother and Nsis was watching and laughing. I didn't know where to go there was a metal pole in the garden and I didn't want to go near it, there was a shed at the bottom of the garden, but it was full of metal things, there was trees. In the end, I curled up in a ball and cried in the middle of the grass.
I am still scared of it.

Whoa. My NM made me ride my bicycle home in a lightning storm when I was 5 because I was afraid of lightening. I was a sobbing mes. Whenever I bring it up she says "Well, you aren't afraid of lightning now are ya?"

I have no response to her.

I wish I could find something she was really scared of and just stand there laughing at her....

are you still scared or not?

brighteyes wrote:I wish I could find something she was really scared of and just stand there laughing at her....

Being alone. That's the one thing they're terrified of and the one thing they ultimately end up as.

My mother in law once answered the door to me (i'd been dating my now husband for a matter of weeks at the time)completely naked but holding her towel!

budhabee wrote:Star Kitten does your mom know she is NM. Has the subject even been brought up by the psychiatrist? How old are you and how old is your mom?

No, she doesn't know that she is N. The psychiatrist and the therapist were "Christian" based, so they believed in "honor thy father and mother," ie, the parents are always right. When I turned 18, I was transferred to another doctor because those doctors only saw children. The new counselor recognized my N as an N right away.

I am 25 now, and my NM is 52. I have been NC for a year. She doesn't even know where I live.

Eek, what creepy things! This is a great thread - it just shows some of the lengths they will go 2 and some of the completely bizarre things they do. Star Kitten - it's great ur Mum doesn't know where u live - make sure and keep it that way!

Oh Brighteyes....your posts make me cry. You are so strong.
So happy you got away young, are safe and have your own family and DH.

All these posts are sad.
What survivors we all are!!

KL wrote:Oh Brighteyes....your posts make me cry. You are so strong.
So happy you got away young, are safe and have your own family and DH.

All these posts are sad.
What survivors we all are!!

I stopped crying over the past years ago. I feel anger and hatred now. I'm sorry they upset you.

I stopped crying over the past years ago. I feel anger and hatred now. I'm sorry they upset you.

Bright eyes, no need to apologise. I'm sad for such suffering is all. And I feel you are so incredibly strong to have got through it all and come through and give your time here to help others with your wise words.

Hey, and I'm right there with ya on the anger and hatred !! My little green gremlin is out in full force this week !!
Sometimes she helps me deal with the pain. She (green gremlin) gets so damn angry, she gets me out of bed when I just want to sink under the blankets.

When I was 5 my NM and PF lived in an area that had bats - I don't know why so many bats there, there just were. The neighbor girl and I were terrified of them as little girls are. I had been playing outside that day and lost the barrette from my hair - just one of those little clip kind. They fell out all the time, my hair was very fine. NM waited until dark, got angry at me for the barrette and shoved me outside to look for it. I told her I couldn't see, and she said I shouldn't have lost it. I cried about the bats (they were like birds out there at night), and she just reiterated that I shouldn't have lost it, closed the door, locked it and turned off the light. I screamed and cried - just so scared, that the neighbor came and got me, and made her take me in.

Same age, I guess I had this small child fascination with smoking like her...both of them did. So I would pick up the butts and mimic what she did...my little attempt to be like mommy I guess. I don't know what her thinking was, but I guess to teach me a lesson not to touch them, she made me eat one. She thought it was funny when I got sick. The things we never forget...I would seriously like to forget those memories.